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Second Time Around Revisited

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It's four-thirty and eighteen degrees when I awaken. Today I’m leaving snow covered Hancock in the western Catskills and the frozen headwaters of the Delaware River, for sunny California for a new job. My bag packed and ready to go rests by the front door downstairs. My neighbor Stanley is driving me to the Greater Binghamton Airport for a six AM flight. It’s still dark outside and I see the yellow light shining dimly in the window of his house next door. I dump my bag in his truck and walk carefully up the gravel path. It’s a sheet of black ice. It’s no joke this black ice. One slip and there goes a hip. "Stanley!” "Yeah".  He's sitting at the head of his dinning room table where he always sits sipping his coffee and smoking a cigarette. The house is warm and the wood stove glows. He's wearing a tee shirt. I'm dressed in layers – tee shirt, black roll-neck under my green wool sweater clasped at the neck, scarf and my black Calvin Kline woolen pea coat...

Black Leather Pants

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There was a point in my life when I took to wearing black leather pants. In a way I was “coming out”, acknowledging my proclivities  as I explored deviance, specifically BDSM.  Bondage. Domination. Submission. Sado-masochism. Phone sex. On and off-line sex. Extended chats and too many strangers to remember. I liked my black leather pants because they were not blue jeans. They were rugged, and edgy; warm in winter, cool in summer, formal and informal and the seams worn smooth and I wore them everywhere for years. They were part of my search for the Philosopher’s Stone.   The “Philosopher’s Stone”. I’d heard Chris Kristofferson was in search of the same; that great state of inner transformation, from base state to enlightenment and maybe even  perfect being. I was pretty much still in the base stage with many a mile to travel but at least I was on the path and in the race. I was buried in snow with early stage Cabin Fever in Hancock and my roof was starting t...